little mistress

mum why are you so sad

please mum i know you feel bad

dont fall into a heap

i know the tears you want to so weep

mum if you go to bed

you know dad will want us to take the lead

he will want us to play mum

an do as you do when the sun aint the sun

please mum dont lay down

mum wake up

we will not make sound

mum dont make day night and night day

mum please mum it will be ok

she sucks her thumb

and quietly tucks herself in

i know now

this is what my sister and i were entwined in

as my sister cooked

we played mum

we did as she did

i made it sound right

i was mum now

didnt anyone know

i knew what to do

to make it all sound so

but deep inside

i screamed out all night

i screamed and screamed

i knew it wasnt right

i never said i do

i will marry you

but it didnt make a difference

he always said i was his little mistress

Naomi

dont find me

curled into a ball

no end in sight

i fight the tears

with all my might

under the bench

my body goes

i squeeze myself in

as far as it goes

i hear them taunt

come out come out

wherever you are

let start looking she cant be far

i feel the pain as i squeeze more tight

i dont care i dont care

i wont give up

without a fight

i hide my eyes from seeing them come

with one yank my hair

come out in clumps

they grab me from my hiding place

and let me know i wasnt safe

Deshanti

money money ***** triggering*****

money money

I didnt hear you come in daddy

i was busy listening to abba

i thought you had gone out

i wanted to pretend all was normal

Dont grab my hair daddy

it hurts so badly so

dont wrench it from its roots

ill do as you say

He looks into my eyes

as money money plays

and tilts his head backs

and lays in that way

he softly starts to sway

money money

is a rich mans way

money money so your little girl can weave her way

he turns it up aroused by its sound

i start to crumple

this wasnt what they meant

they didnt mean it for little girls like me

he licks my face like a dog

all the time humming

he groans that i turn him on

that it was me playing the money money song

suddenly im gasping for air

as he shoves his thing

into my mouth

and says suck baby suck for all your worth

i gag i almost throw up

this is the first time

hes made me suck

in a few moments he thrusts and screams

money money

he says that

is what i mean

he shuts my mouth

and swallow

i gag i twist

but i do as he says

he smiles and licks his lips

and says thats exactly what i mean

money money

that will make them be seen

naomi

dont do it daddy

Dont do it daddy

dont come near

dont do it daddy

its you i fear

the pain reaches in

stretches far and wide

it takes my breath away

and hurts deep inside

im not your daddy he breathes

i am your torture

your moment

your life surreal

he is a monster

he likes to cause pain

he seems to get power

in his game

dont do it daddy

dont rip me from inside

please daddy

let me hide

deep inside i reach

far away to the dark places

nowhere can touch me there

no one will know or care

i hide inside the body

i hide for years

i never knew of others

or their boundless tears

i thought i was only one

but there are so many more

all of whom were shattered

by terrible peoples abuse

dear daddy dont do this to me

please daddy let me be free

Naomi